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Radiohead "All I Need"

Cant stop listening to this, beautiful track, beautiful album, excellent companion whilst working.

Studio Photography, with the very patient and co-operative Vlad. Really like the diversity between images, and how each one holds an entirely different space. Starting to clue on to the possibilities of photography as a medium. I thought it was a kind of detached practice, but I reckon there's just a flow I have to get into,  programme the camera into my brain, alongside the other systems I use to draw or paint. Something like that...

A very dark photograph of a perspective drawing, and my introduction to metal tipped quill pens.

This is a favourite from a photogram session. I developed the paper through a set of  my spinal x rays.

I think they're almost beautiful. They disturb me a little, But I keep looking for patterns, strange hazy shapes and colours. Makes me feel less alienated by the condition. And it's wierdly attractive having them around the house, interacting with these images outside their usual hiding place, the big important manilla envelope of woe.

Ere's an ammonite fossil. Observational drawing makes me hurt.

These are some progress photos of my first attempt painting a self portrait. It is acrylic, on a thick watercolor paper, taped to the mirror which I sat in front of for two days.

Everybody tells me I look miserable.
I tell them, you try smiling at your self for ten hours.

Also, I enjoy the weariness in those eyes. It's a really honest picture, and I found the liquid medium capable of expressing the subtle innuendos, the curlicues of doubt, embedded in my reflection. Totally different from ink, pencil or pastel.

I have previously been intimidated by paint. It seemed beyond me. Now there is a fresh anticipation, perhaps it will be a future ally after all.